So. I've been feeling somewhat guilty about not posting more often, but I've just had a lot of other things I've needed to deal with of late. Shortly after I started this blog, I looked at several resources for expanding blog readership, increasing site traffic, etc. "Add this link/button/widget/banner," and more to that effect. Read and comment on other related blogs. I may have made certain overtures to that end, but the truth is I began this mostly for myself, to have a chronicle of what I've been doing to recover from my physical and emotional setbacks. I didn't feel very comfortable talking about any of it for a while, and blogging about it seemed among other things, a really easy way for friends and family to get up to speed on my situation.
Then I started getting comments and messages, first from people I know and then from others I didn't. All positive, a lot saying I helped the person in some way. That matters to me, mostly because I felt really alone in all of this when I started having to deal with it, and if anything I have to say could help someone dealing with similar problems then that in and of itself makes the whole thing worthwhile.
There's also a factor to my level of activity with the blog that I'm sure wouldn't be the first to spring to mind, which is that I was told I couldn't work by my doctors for a long period of time. What ended up being close to three years by the time I was given the go-ahead to go back to work. Might I add, easily the three most boring years of my entire life. Loafing is absolutely not for me. I prefer to be as busy as possible and going from a busy, fast-paced lifestyle to an extremely sedentary one was frustrating and depressing, so I welcomed having a project to occupy my time. I stopped and started with several others before focusing on this one.
In December of last year, my doctors conferred and agreed that it would be okay for me to start looking for work. Having been completely out of work for so long and self-employed for over a decade previous, getting a toe-hold in the workforce again has not been exactly easy. But I've been logging time at a temp agency for a few months where I've made a great and supportive business contact. I feel confident that it won't be terribly long before I can find more steady work. Once I'm at a regular job, I plan on enrolling in classes at a local college. Suddenly I have all these plans, things that have been gaining momentum on a back burner for the better part of the past year. Finally everything is coming together. The lady who was once so bothered by a lack of things to do is now finding herself with a full plate. Believe me when I tell you I'm ready to dig in!
So where that leaves me in regard to the blog is this: I don't have the time to put into it that I used to. Has my readership suffered from it? Sure. But I honestly don't care whether or not I'm the coolest kid on the blog block. If I wanted high readership I'm sure I could have regaled the world with tales from my dancing/clubbing/drinking/partying/life-on-the-road days. Maybe someday I will tell those stories. But not here. not now. That's never what this was about. I've decided not impose any sort of deadlines with this project from now on. I'll post when I wish, and if you've been reading so far and choose to continue to follow, I sincerely thank you for your interest and support.
I hope everyone has a fantastic day.
